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it's my new bloggie ..
i found that this bloggie is rather messy
so managed to get a new one
do visit my new bloggie oo ^^V
thankss~~

yo ^^V

i was lazy to update my bloggie ..
i was really busy with my group magazine and mid term exam ><
huh ... !! i feel that my day and night had "terbalik" kii ..
i feel sleepy during daytime as i slept about 2 or 3 in the morning ><
it was quite tiring ..

for my studies , i found it physics might be a tough subject for me TT
i have to study harder TT o pray to God .

i'm waiting for the reply from jpa scholarship ..
it's quite a long time lur ~~
cant wait to know the result ..
i know it's really hard to hit it , yet , still want to pray to God . .
i do really hope that i hit !! plss ~~~ plss~~~
Because of this , i feel veli frustrated ~~
i scared i wont get it TT
haiss ~~~

thats my life recently ~~ for other "thing" i wont think much about it anymore ~~
i knew it has ended !! i must accept it !!!

oh ya !! lester lester !!! i m glad that u got the Petronas scholarship !!
really happy for you ^^V all the best for you at Perak ~~
i m sorry that cant meet you before u depart off to Perak ~~
really sorry for it o ~~
hope your life goes on smoothly , happily ...
must be strong oo ^^b ^^V
all the best to u !!
love u , my fren !

19th April , 2010

it's 18 days i haven't update my bloggie ..
there're so many things happened in this 18 days ...
well , i don't want to touch on it anymore .
as long as it has passed .
all i need is friends ^^V
i shouldn't blame too much .
i feel lucky enough , i have a lot of good friends ,including my old and new friends .
Thanks a lot , my friends ~~
i will smile smile and smile ~
let go all the sadness , tears ..
be tough ...

i want to leave here ...
going to Singapore or Australia ..
stay away from this sad place .
but ..
now i m in the class , writing this post ..
my friends and lecturer are so cute ~
i saw them laughing ,.. i feel i m really lucky to be here ..
i am happy with them ...

anyway , the percentage is too low ..
all is because i'm waiting for the reply of scholarship .
if only they accept me ..
... .... ... ... ... ... what i can do , is pray to God ..
hope i can get overseas for my further studies ~

all the best to everyone ...
byebye ~~

my 31st of March,2010

i think i'm lucky enough.. because i have bunch of new friends with me ..
they are nice ^^
he is busy ..
ok with it ~
cos' i shouldn't always stick to him ..
i have being selected for JPA scholarship interview .....
on 8th April , 2010 ....
(i didn't have time to tell him , hopefully he will see it , and know it here ) ~

aand thanks George for lending me your id card to get digi campus plan ..
cos' my id card is not ready yet ~
thanks very much ^^

another thing ... i miss my high school friends so much TT
wish to see them .. but i am rather busy since entering the pre-U life ~
sorry for it ~~~
haixx ..


kk .. that's all for this post ..
deal to other things ..
byebye ~

... just too bored ...

i'm now in the computer lab of Swinburne ..
having no class ...
thanks yj for lending me your id card ..
i have to wait for weeks to get in .. TT
because of the technical problem here
(might be the printer i think) ..
so i have to wait ..
seriously , i hate waiting .. for anything !!
huh ~
i m so bored now ..
he is busying i think TT ..
luckily i have a friend with me now ..
my other new friends are not in the same class with me ..

huh ... i enjoy my U life ..
but i miss my high school life TT
guys.. i miss the every moment we have together TT ...

hope to see you guys soon ~~
byebye ..

what's my title ?? rojak ??

i m going to start my schooling next week ..
full of fears !!
going to suffer from these ..
how can it be ? days with classes at nights ..
huh ...
unhappy ... frustrating ..
anyway .. hope everything goes well ... please, by heart !!

my heart keeps struggling these days ..
really tiring ..
not here to say anything ...
i hope i still can afford all this ..
because .. i still want continuing ..
i don't want giving in ..
God, please give me strength ..
i am mentally ill ..

i feel unlucky ... by heart .. where is my luckiness ..
please come back to me ~~

lastly , all the best to everyone ya ~~
hope u guys happy and lucky ..
don't be unlucky like me ^^
for sure, luckiness will fall on u guys ^^
kk .. that's all .. nites yea~

....lalalaa~

suffered from pain now .. ish ...
and kinda bored now ..
so here i am updating my blog lurr ..
it's written in my last post that i'm taking foundation in Commerce ..
but now... my mind get confused once more ..
confused between Commerce and Engineering ..
at the end .. i planned to take Engineering course for my Pre-U ...
then using a year time to decide whether Commerce or Engineering ...

kk... that's all .... getting more pain now ... ish ..
byebye ~~ take care everyone ^^

hi^^

well , SPM is totally a past tense now ... !!!
happy ~~
yesterday , i met Ms Leong at ITC ..
i was there to ask for her opinion about my further studies ..
so , i m not going for field of Engineering ....
she said it doesn't suit me at all ..
advising me to go either field of medic or commerce ..
she supports me to go for Foundation in Commerce ..
so , i will listen to her ..
if Medic side .. it's Pharmacy ... (the one she agree )
but , it's stressful... and if no school grant me , finance will be the problem ..
7 years !! it's a long period of time !!!


so, i'm going for Foundation in Commerce .. (if no mistaken )
but , not sure which school to study ..
hmmm ... that's all ~~ byebye ~~
happy everyday oo ~~

i don't know i should happy or sad ....

i received my spm result today ..
i got straight A's :7a+ , 3a- ...
i satisfied with it ...
but .. now ..
i rather don't have these results !!
because .... i don't know what will be my next step ....
i dare not to think , dare not to dream ....
because ... for sure , i cannot do what i want ..
my mom didn't even have confidence on me ..
she asked me , how you know you can sure u can perform well in U .
how sad i listen .. she would never know !!!

i really couldn't understand ... i hate myself !!!!! i really hate myself !!!!
........... i am getting crazy ....
i wish i can earn money now !!! then i can leave here , study wad i wish to be in ...

TT

how's my future ???
can anyone tell me ???
i'm totally blur !!!!!!
TT
so confusing !!!!!!!!!!
my head is going to burst !!
TT .......

i just want a happy starting ~~ following by a good ending !!
i need your support !!
i do need it so muchh!!!!
can u support me ??
try listen to me ??
try to listen to my mind ???
mom.. please ...

SPM SPM SPM ..... !!!

SPM result is coming out soon ...
left hours ....
nervous , nervous and nervous !!!!!!!!!!
i scared ....
i scared i didn't achieve what i have aimed ...
anyway .... no regrets ...
because .. i have put it all my efforts on it ...
so do my friends ^^
i missed the time we studied together
guys ... still remember ??
i hope all of us can receive good results !!!
jiayou !! i hope can receive good news from all of u !!
pray for u guys ~~~^^

arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a boring day!!!

the only today's so boring .. staying at home , no driving lesson..no course..
mom is busy today so i'm not going for my course today ..
but it almost end lu .. till this friday ..
happy .. =D
Now i'm dealing with my dad's co.'s account ...
mom, i have to say .. those bills are really messy TT ..
more works to do ~~

and i will be having my driving test on the coming MON.
(nervous )!!! i want to PASS !!!!!! I MUST PASS !!
may ALLAH , GOD bless me .. !! please ~~

yesterday,i didn't receive msg from him who is now at China how sad TT..
anyway , he is returning today yea^^V
happy ~~

i miss my frens !!
i saw Keryn days ago .. so happy arh !! i really miss her so much..
my besties, i want to meet u guys !!!
i want talk with u guys .. !!

so , i must pass my test ,get my driver's license ...
and out with my frens , and him too ^^

now i have to continue with my UBS stuff again ..
i will be free next week after MON.
so hope luckiness surrounds me .. let me pass the test !!!!

luckssss!!!!to everyone too.. ^^ must happy everyday oo ^^^

arhh almost forget ~~
a book to introduce ~~ THE SECRETS !!teen power ~~
nice ^^

kk that's all^^ byebye~~

barely free ~ tiring days ~

starting from 23th FEB. i went for a short course at Tabuan . ( it is really so far for me )!!
i spent whole days at CORPOREX S/B ..
learning from directors there ( they are so nice )^^
by next week i will be finishing this course ..
it is an account practicing course ..
it is a good .
..and ..
after this course , i will have experience and able to do accounting and operate UBS software ..
it costs RM 1000 only , a certificate is given..
if u are interested in it , pls get info from me o...
trust me , it's worth !!^^

............ ...



don't know what to post up .. aizz .. so .. bb loh ..

happy chinese new year and happy valentine ~~

halo ~~
erm .. firstly , happy cny n happy valentine ^^
hope everyone spends this cny n valentine happily ~~
well , i knew i shouldn't have any unhappy words or may be feeling ..
but , i am really unhappy ..
later i am gonna back to Sibu later .. erm 3 am ~~
i DON'T WANT TO GO FOR IT KNOW !!!!!!
I JUST DON'T LIKE IT !!!!

just now having some misunderstanding with family .. ~~haizzzz i don't want it too .. i really have keep smiling ...
but my tears' fault !!! i just cant stop it ..

sorry mom !!i shouldn't let my tears fall down in front of ppl..

( i ask , if someone said a new thing that u just bought is not suit u and too old for u , what would u feel ?? ) maybe , it's really too old but u just like it


i know:( i am ah ma , love oldly stuff ma )..and my taste is not good and i am old-fashioned ) so , can be don't too straight forward ??? hahaxx (sounds stupid )


oh ya .. keryn keryn .. i don't know when i am going to return to KCH ..
i am really sorry 1st if i still at sibu during CHU 3 ...
And also vivian ~~ for CHU 4 .. i am really sorry 1st!!



blablabla .. anyway , happy chinese new year wor ^^ and happy valentine !! sweet sweet with ur dears ^^~ happy for ur guys ^^ byebye ..

Aduhduh !!!!!!

days ago , mom received call from my youngest auntie at Australia..
she told mom she is going back to Sibu this CNY ...
planned suddenly ..( my family will go back too )
so,she wil arrive Kuching and back to Sibu wif us during CNY eve ~
Seriously,i am not that eager to go back ..cuz it must be a tiring journey ..
and , it's A Very Sudden decision .. i am not prepared for it @@


.... aduh ... it has messed up all the things ... argggghhhhh!!!

happy birthday to one~~

happy birthday.. ..
happy birthday.. ..
erm .. erm ..
today is one's birthday..
but i don't want to spoil his mood to message him and say happy birthday to him and i write this post here , he won't view it , so blablabla..
may be for him , we are not friends anymore ..
but ..
anyway ....
happy birthday to u ~~
hope u happy everyday ~~~
and, may all your wishes come true^^


.............

............ terrible driving lesson ....

@@ frustrated .. .. @@
i just came back from driving lesson for one hour ++
.. i can't perform well again .. it's already the third time ...@@
God .. i did show some improvement during the 2nd time but ...
today ... wuwu .. my Sifu said , i drove lousier than last time...
it really hurts ~~ why am i so stupid ?? why ??
T.T i still don't know how to control the car steering T.T
why ..
haizzz !!!!!!!!!!!!

os: sorry .. its about driving again .. @@

sometimes i feel ... i am so stupid...

i feel i am so stupid .. @@
even learn driving .. i am facing this problem too @@ ..
last week i got license L ..
and started learning last thursday ..TERRIBLE !!
God .. i am so so stupid ..
i thought it might be fun and easy..
but ... now i think it's scary @@(may laugh at me,i am ok with it..cuz i admitted i am stupid)
i was so nervous ..(till i can't even listen into my teacher's instruction)
haizz.. .. it became my nightmare .. i can't even sleep well...
@@ why ????????????????
..........CAN I PERFORM BETTER ??TT
......................

TO BE CONTINUED ...

hye ^^ first year 2010 post ..

hye .. year 2010 has started ..
but these days i was just wasting my time with this pink laptop( my uncle's)...
so bored u know ?
by the way, i woke up very early in the morning as 8am (woke up by my mom) ..
mom taught me to cook .. wow .. seriously , i enjoyed it .. (but it's terrible too)
i scared the oils might "pop out" and hit my hands .. God , it's so painful !!
anyway , i feel glad that .. my food nicely accepted by my family ^^ .. they said my food tasted nice ^^

and i went shopping with family during weekends .. and be a spendthrift as i simply bought things @@ ...sure .. clothes too ..

actually i did want to find a job to fill my wasted time @@
but unsuccessful ..@@ i went for interview accompanied by mom at a Chinese traditional pharmacy ..

but..

THE BOSS DIDN'T WANT TO HIRE ME AS HIS WORKER ..T.T(sounds stupid)

at the end .. mom said .. i no need go working anymore .. stay at home first @@


and .. i miss my friends so much !!!!
there might be a party with my friends during CNY at my home ..
MOM ASKED ME THAT WILL YOU GUYS COME THIS YEAR ??
i scared that you guys don't come ..
so i haven't decide whether the party will be held or not ..
but seriously .. i do hope that all of you will come ..@@
then the par can be held~

and i heard something happened to one of my besties @@
(no name's listed)
hope u are ok .. jia you !!!!
@@ erm .. besides , i felt sorry to my another bestie ..
SORRY ,K***N..
i can't say reason here lah ..
but .. i have to say .. i am really really sorry ~
erm... do anything that u feel happy ^^
don't influence by words from my stupid mouth ...
as long as u feel happy i will feel happy for you ..
i am really sorry .. @@