What to say ?

i feel down now ..
gosh .. tears in my eyes ..

how's my today ?
terrible !!

i have waited for one , two , three , four , five , six days ..
yea.. it was six days ..
finally , i received *** from someone ...
but in contra ..
wished to receive it ..
but ..
rather didn't receive it ..
i didn't give me any hope ..
just a disappointment ..
i hate insomnia ..!!!
i really hate it so much !!
it made me thinks a lot every night since that day ~
but how could i get rid of it ?
what's my ACTUAL thought?
i really don't know ..
depressed , you know ?
no,no,no... you will never know it , right ?
yes, i'm right ..
**sorry , i also don't what am i writing ..
BEING CRAZY !!

God , can you decide for me ..
every time , it rains .. it will be my moody day ..
yea .. it 's never wrong ..
just now .. it rained ..
i thought there's nothing would happen ..
but i'm wrong ..

it's like an ice cube ,
it keeps melting ,
it keeps "bleeding" somehow ..
i feel it ...
it will be nothing in the end ...
T.T..

arhhhh~~ if you were me , what's your decision ??




** erm ... Happy birthday to Gerald !! wish u happy every day ~

kk,, it's late .. nitezz ~

will i send a nite message to you#S...??